It rained a lot this year
The sun shone with its full brightness
There were shadows from the past
And flashes of the future
Questions were answered this year
And more were left without a say!!

Found love, found sadness
Found friends, found myself
Discovered new meanings for old things
Invented new beginnings from endings

It started with a sunny morning an year back
With new resolutions,
It went on to give amazing experiences
Some we hated, some we held on to
Some we learned from and some we let go

Things done and said
With a wish of a second chance
Relations made and broken
With an innocent heart

Mistakes done, regrets walked
Consequence incurred
Some decisions, admired and strong
Some set examples and some took lead
Old ways mended and Habits changed

Hands held and moments shared
Happiness lost but silence rare
Someone found with a ray of hope
Someone came close to fill us with hope
Faith shattered, trust regained
Respect earned and truth known

Myths broken and facts lost
Heart filled blood,
Beats a little faster

Paths collided and lost dreams
Unexpected happened like a blossoming rose
At night
Slept alone, but
Woke up with half the world

Day ended with hope of the morning to shine bright
Afternoon passed with a restless mind
Evenings came with romantic delight
Nights were darker with confusion of the mind
Midnights brought heart to draught
Leaving shadows for the moments passed
Some slept with lovely warmth
And some with a lonely dream

Yesterday it seemed
This year was the middle-end of my life
But today, I know
Its is the middle but not an End
It the mid point of new start,
Of new challenges,
Of meeting new people
Of having new relations
Of a new trust
Of a new path for my destiny
So tonight it ends, with a new beginning
Tonight I’ll sleep alone
Tomorrow I’ll wake up with a bang
And the whole world singing a new song

This year gave,
Happiness and sadness
Friends and lovers
Family and relations
I now look back and see myself different
I’ll look in the mirror tomorrow and will be different
There are no regrets, and no going back

This year gave me pain and tears
With thousands smiles and laughs
And moments to cherish that we’ll live with me forever and ever

I found some and lost some
But it’s just another start from the finishing line

I blushed and I shied
I was strong and weak
I was decisive and confused
And today I carry myself for a new a beginning
With more strength and more determination
I look forward for a new day with opens arms
And a smiling heart.

I m trapped in a glass castle
With wings to my body but no way out
I look differenct, I seem different
Than others, To others
But not to him, Because he was my friend

He was my friend,
So he never looked at me with strange eyes
Neither did he ever spoke to me like I don't belong
He was my only connection to the outer world,
And he thought that he didnt belong the very world.

He was my friend, or still is!!!
I don't know, as now his eyes have changed
He can't see me no more
He has turned his ears away
I can't hear him
Is it that I stopped existing for him;
Or is it that my wings are catching fire?

I can't speak to him anymore
his voice used to make me laugh,
Make me dream, make me cry, make me shy
But now, I m hurt
And I don't know Why!
I want to tell him,
But I go speechless when I see him
Its not him but its me!
I m changing,

I wanted to leave this glass castle
Full of ice inside, no warmth, no love
I wanted to fly high in the sky
And breathe in the air of love
And flock my wings with someone
But now, I m growing weak
I can't feel my wings anymore
I can't sleep anymore
There is no dream
There is no hope
And so I m dying inside

I am but not weak,
But is it strong to not to tell
That I m dying
I m just suriving,
Just living coz I don't remember what it means to live

I meet different people everyday
They talk to me, and listen to me
But I still miss talking to my friend
My friend has a life too
And I never realised that
But now I do, So he is free, and I won't make him be with me

People tell me, that I am different
But I m good
Then why do I feel as if they are talking about someone else
Why don't I feel that very strenght and power in me anymore?
I want to talk but it just seems
As all that I ever had was only 1 friend
And now he isn't there,
Because I won't talk
As I thought he won't listen, he can't listen,

No, I have friends, many many many
But I listen to them,
But they don't listen to me
Because I took there ears as I gave it to him
So now I have no one to talk to who would also listen to me

I have so much to share,
Loads to say, but no one here
I m piling inside
Its now coming in tears
But it still there
The silence, the pain
What is causing
I don't know
I loved being alone
But not so alone

All I want is to talk,
To someone who cares
But I never let anyone care for me
I thot it was wrong
If anyone cared for me
I m not weak so I dont need anyone to care
To worry, to love
They say in the end you get what you sowe
I never let any warmth come near me
Or else the ice inside would melt
So now warmth doesn't want to come to me
As its afraid of being turned into chill
Coz of the ice inside this glass castle and
The cold filled heart and body of mine.

Time and Time, I fail to understand
My own emotions,
My own Decisions,”
This is what they say,
When understanding me is not their way!!!

I am not tangled like locks
I may not be simple as a calm river
I may not be strong as Hercules
But I am not here to be an example of Achilles Heels

You may hate me!!!
You may love me!
But you can’t make me feel in your way.
I was standing high
I m still standing tall
Shake me as much as you want,
But I m no wall that has a hidden passage

No Name

Black as a veil
Is my shadow
But I retort,
For rainbow is what defines my ways.

If
Shining like gold is the soul of your son
Why then! Purest of hearts take sacrifices inhumane

Over the mountain, below the sun
In the rain, during floods
Heavy storms or lightning strokes
She still stands
Thrown from Eden on this earth, she still repents
Not of the sin she partook
But of the free will lost

Are you there? Or have you abandoned me?
I m your most beautiful creation
Banished from your heaven
I have survived,
But is it time for me to breathe

Me not a part of his body
That can be shunned to darkness
With an identity, I m the source of true life
I m the only link to you
Then why, should I suffer in hell
Be alone in a crowd
Not be a voice even in an empty hall.

I finally retort
Give me my due freedom
As I m not yours to claim
Beware, oh! image of magnanimity
I m not alone, you gave me hell
I exist from the sin forgone
Till thee shall I pay?
For the time has come
To have my Eden without thee.

orphan of silence

Love was when I 'loved' you.
Open your heart to me!!!
Give me some space in your Life!!!
I m not begging but asking for what is mine.

Love me like you’ve never loved before.
Praise me like you’ve never praised before.
Hold me tight as you haven’t done in years.
Let me feel your warmth,
Let me sense your touch,
For One last time, Let me live through you

It’s been a long night of Questions that were left unanswered,
Of Truth that we never looked for,
Of hope that I need now,
But the time to hold on is long forgone

Can you let go so easily?
Can you stop this time, this moment?
You wished me farewell long ago,
Then why these tears don’t let you go?

You said ‘you moved on’,
But you never said that it was me that you moved away from
Or is it because I still have you?
Don’t trick me with your tears,
Don’t try to stop me with your love

You found me when I lost myself in you
You lost me, when I found myself in Me.